[taken from my offline dissertation journal]

12/6/02

I know I've written more in this journal. In the last six months I have done the following:

1.gotten a job
2.moved to Utah
3.Taught 4 sections of writing classes, including technical writing
4.Spent a lot of time working on the house

It makes me miserable to look at this dissertation journal and see how my fears and concerns haven't changed much over three years. I feel like a slave to my fear and my ADD. If I don't get significant work done in the next three weeks I may kill myself or look for another job. I can't handle the stress of not having the dissertation done and it is dissolving my marriage. I have a clamp on my head, constantly.